What a Great Night. at Caffeinated Dreams

What a Great Night.

Published by Jen June 2nd, 2005 in Uncategorized, Ego Tags: Ego.

Ok, I finally broke it to my mom. Everything. Totally honest. The reaction was close to something I was expecting, but some things came up which are really frightening me, and I don’t know what to do.

I told my mom about a job offer, and she said it was good, then asked where. I told her: Denmark. She said no, and so I continued explaining to her. I asked for support, and I wanted her to just know about it. She still said no, and begins listing off tons of reasons why I shouldn’t go.

Well, I knew she had surgery coming up in July with a 6 week recovering time, but the time was so long only because of where the stitches are (a very akward place…). Today she told me the real reason why she was getting surgery. To prevent cancer. I lost my dad to cancer, so this really took me back. She doesn’t have cancer yet, it has been monitored very carefully since October to see if it would turn into it, and it might unless she doesn’t get this surgery. I have high hopes though because they caught it before it even became cancer, which almost always means success. So I think moving wouldn’t be TOO bad right now…

What am I saying? This is my mother. I don’t know what to do. I think I do, but I don’t like any of the options here. I really miss being with Lance, and have been waiting and working to finally go out there, which is slated for the 20th of this month. Now I’m not so sure…